it really sucks that the awesome parts of Christmas has completely diminished from my life. everything is just another bummer. i don't think all is lost, but a huge chunk is gone for good. merry Christmas.
i miss elliot terribly. i last saw him on thursday. i cried my eyeballs out on the train to alex's. she cheered me up though, she's great to keep around.
i smoked a cigarette to get his smell back in my room, because i'm stupid. i am seeing him tomorrow though.
i have an interview tomorrow. i hope it goes well!