ihateyhem

i hate my suite mates so much that thinking of them being harmed in some way helps me get to sleep. but my room mate is fucking off the chain. seriously.

my internship at Ad Hoc starts today at one p.m. i'm a little nervous and concerned for what i should wear. in the end, i'm super excited!

i want to be more positive about life but still be able to see through the bullshit.

this came up after i did a search for vagina.

neck back

last night my bathroom smelt like




all in that order. it was pretty gross.


i have to paint 10 feet tonight. 5 right and 5 left. But first a nap.
look up vaginal prolapse and educate yourself.

abandoned sparks

some pictures from the past weekend with alex. we have fun!

in the perks

this past weekend was spent with alex. it was filled with pizza bites, salvation army, naps, diner foods, dancing, peeing in a hallway, keg stealth, mr. black and mr. showalter, snacks, and gin. it was a very nice weekend. alex is the best for remembering how great it was to be 16.

i organized my underwear drawer today because i got so bored. the mustache i ironed-on a pair of undies is coming off. I'm kinda sad about this.






i took this picture a little over a year ago at the red apple rest, which has been abandoned for about 5 years now. it used to be hopping back in the 50s, but it's now collapsing on itself.

flabber jacks

i think i'm tired. i can't tell though. i've been feeling stupid and not quite with it all. i'm in a fucking daze. i wish i could get paid to sleep.


i had a dream i ran into tina in a hotel and i told her i think it sucks that we all don't hang out like we used to. she just looked at me a little weird and went off to the room she was staying in. she looked back at me before she went in as if to a response, but i just shrugged her off. she also had a faint mustache...


making poems into comics sucks. especially when it takes me forever to interpret them.

oh and heath ledger died... wtf?

21 degrees

i haven't left the building all day today. it is way too cold to go outside. i cleaned up my room, the kitchen and cooked foods for myself.


the mouse trap did not catch anyone. they just licked the peanut butter off the trap.






i should do work.......

flaming hobo

i went to see cloverfield last night. the shakiness of the camera and the stress of the movie made me nauseous. i loved the monster, it was really fucking awesome looking, the way it moved and walked around. i liked it but it felt like the movie was missing something.



i bought a pair of tights with the black line going down in the back of the legs.

last night i set a mouse trap with peanut butter on it. i'm going to feel really shitty if it does kill a mouse...

oh yea, it was me

i started the fire in willoughby.

nifty fun

on monday night, i saw the mars volta perform at terminal five. i feel like i've never seen a band that insane when they played. i can't compare it to anything except, "holy fucking shit....what was that?!" it was tons 'o fun.


i feel so shitty right now. i didn't sleep last night, my nose was all clogged up, and i couldn't stop thinking about ridiculous crap. for example, i was considering taking up being a stand up comedian and thinking up a routine.

but i'm wearing my cool new holey salvation army sweater today, so life isn't that bad.

leader meter

it kinda grosses me out that is all my suite mates ever want to eat. it also bothers me that one of my suite mates' boyfriend kinda looks like skeevey child molester. i know i shouldn't judge, but my imagination gets the best of me.

the joy

i've been back in brooklyn since wednesday. i saw pat off on wednesday night. he's staying home for the semester until he goes to study abroad in germany. i'm not sure if it's at the bauhaus but where else would it be?

elliot and i watched nicholas cage's debut film sonny last night. it was alright.




i really like this dress off of topshop. i buy a lot of dresses, but i do it on impulse and never wear them because i think i look awkward in them. so they just sit in my closet until i try them on once in a while when i'm bored. and that's it. but i think i would look nice in this one. meh i dunno i like dresses.


classes start on monday, my internship doesn't start until february now. i'm going to use my time wisely now for once.

biggest

after listening to Michael Showalter's Sandwich Commandments, i made myself a sandwich. a BLT to be more specific. it was my second one today, the first one i bit a large part of the inside of my cheek while chewing. i can feel the flab of skin in my mouth with my tongue.

i got my driver's license renewed today. the ladies at the DMV are really nice.

i go back to brooklyn tomorrow. mary is coming with me and spending the day with her friend bart from school. my only concern is how she is going to get back. i'm beginning to think that i'm too protective over her but it's only because i think she acts really stupid sometimes. she may just be able to take care of herself....nah.


i should finish packing. and shower.
ugh why do i feel like i'm not living for anything right now?

walking around blind

going back to brooklyn cannot come soon enough. the usual conflict between my mother and i occurs when we live in the same house. love her, but i can't live with her anymore.

i got my dress for my birthday today. it's a red satin mini dress and for once i like how i look in a sassy getup. my parents don't like it, but they think that i go out dancing and throwing myself around like a drunken slut. i don't i'm far too awkward.

my birthday pictures will look something like this :

happy birfday to me!!!!!

birthday fun time is still about a month away, but i'm going to make this awesome because last year was a total disappointment. wee!

gosh i hope justin timberlake shows up :)

oh frankie valli

today was the baby shower. being surrounded by the squeals and aww's from women of all ages was tolerable with the never-ending supply of mimosas to our table. my cousin's other cousin hannah was their. the last time i saw her i was in 5th grade and she was such an intense tomboy that i thought she was a devon sawa look alike and thought she was a cute boy. she finally filled into a girlish figure.


i hate that when i want to see my friends from high school i have to always go see them. they never want to make an effort to come see me. whatever it's not that big of a deal.


i need some more direction in my life.

thermal pantsuit

i bought tickets to see Michael Ian Black and Michael Showalter perform at the Music Hall of Williamsburg. it used to be called north six, but they must have changed it for the better i guess. either way i'm totally excited to see them again! sans wain but it's ok.

jeff, mary and i went to see my good friend caroline last night. i haven't seen her since july, so it was good to see her before she goes off to ireland to study abroad. she has a huge irish wolfhound named albi.

i wanted to go to the dmv and pay 50 dollars for a new license today but i guess that will have to wait until tomorrow.

Meeesure

i just remembered that my cousin's baby shower is in three days. i don't really want to go.

since i've been home, i've been having some really vivid intense dreams. monsters on the subway platform and humans crawling around on the subway tracks like rats. the monsters try and lure the humans up so they can eat them. also another dream involved me and a group of people locking ourselves in a room so as not to get killed by some evil thing. we came to the conclusion that we could not remain there so our best bet would be to storm out and spray the evil being with Windex in the face. I had to look under the door to see if it was still there and instead of me looking, two arms came tearing through underneath the door and grabbed me. it woke me up.

i'm also addicted to mario galaxy. so much fun!

yea!