crisstmans peeve

it really sucks that the awesome parts of Christmas has completely diminished from my life. everything is just another bummer. i don't think all is lost, but a huge chunk is gone for good. merry Christmas.

hey ho let go

i got my septum pierced today. i'm like sooooo spontaneous.

MUCH WORK TO DO. FUCK OFFs.

between

i miss elliot terribly. i last saw him on thursday. i cried my eyeballs out on the train to alex's. she cheered me up though, she's great to keep around.


i smoked a cigarette to get his smell back in my room, because i'm stupid. i am seeing him tomorrow though.

i have an interview tomorrow. i hope it goes well!

makes you feel good

so much to be done. all i want is to sleep. i am inspired.

please stand for morning prayer

when i was a little kid in catholic school, we had morning prayer every day. we prayed a rosary and for the souls in purgatory. for the longest time, the idea of purgatory for me was all these souls battling each other to get into heaven. they all had weapons and went to town on each other. heaven is a huge deal you guys.

dreadz

i'm going to dye most of my clothes black.

for real

for the first time in my life, I am proud to be an American.

Great job America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mental fist bump for all.

obsessed

irate scratch

i love these so much! the line work! gah!


i went to bed late last night. i was trying to figure out some homework. i don't feel like it's done, but i'm going down the right path.

gaze at the hotel

i mopped the kitchen floor. i'm enjoying some lentil soup.

an explosion of creativity needs to occur soon. maybe i should start wearing all black. stains won't be so noticeable.

destruit

Appearance:
I am 5' 4" or shorter.
I think I'm ugly sometimes.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair were a different color.
I have friends that have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have (had) braces.
I wear glasses
I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, and didn't leave scars.
A complete stranger has told me that I'm attractive.
I have/had more than two piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles

Family/home life:
I've sworn at my parents.
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling who is less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I've lost a child.

Embarrassment:
I've slipped out a "LOL" in spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard that I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my pants rip in public.

Health:
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've had stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've had a serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.

Traveling:
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.
I've been to France.

Experiences:
I've been lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny-dipping.
I've played spin-the-bottle.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person from the Internet.
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've played chicken.
I've sat on a roof top at night.
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've eaten sushi.
I've been snowboarding.

Relationships:
I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm available.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been dumped more than I have dumped.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I've been divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality:
I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
I've kissed a member of the same sex.
I've had sex with someone of the opposite sex.
I've had sex with someone of the same sex.
I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've had sex outdoors.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.

Honesty/crime:
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've run a red light.
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.
I've shoplifted.

Drugs/alcohol:
I've consumed alcohol.
I smoke cigarettes.
I smoke pot.
I drink regularly.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't really need them.
I've done hard drugs.
I've been addicted to an illegal substance.
I take cough meds when I'm not sick.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about five pills at a time, no problem.

Mental health:
I have received a diagnosis of depression.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I take antidepressants.
I have (had) an eating disorder.
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
I've hurt myself on purpose.
I'm addicted to self-harm.
I've woken up crying.

Death:
I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
I have attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.

Random:
I can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others too easily.
I watch the news.
I don't kill bugs.
I hate songs that sacrifice meaning for rhyme scheme.
I fucking curse regularly, goddamn.
I sing in the shower.
I am a morning person.
I paid for my ringtone.
I'm a grammar snob.
I am a sports fanatic.
I play with my hair.
I have (had) Xs in my screen name.
I love being neat.
I love Spam.
I've copied more than thirty CDs in one day.
I bake well.
My favorite color is white, yellow, pink, red, or blue.
I don't know how to shoot a gun.
I am in love with love.
I am guilty of typing LiKe ThIs.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I believe in ghosts.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room
I am really ticklish.
I love white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I play video games.
I'm good at remembering faces.
I'm good at remembering names.
I'm good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
My answers are totally honest.

menace

walls echoed with screams

tonight i will be heading up to yonkers for alex's 21st birthday party. there will be much drinking and dancing as there would be at any birthday party.

last night i made an attempt to make some pumpkin soup. it was alright, not the best moment in my life of cooking. i tried something new though, frying the pumpkin seeds instead of baking them. it tastes mad good.

i have so much stuff to do i could vomit.

fogforestincenseleaveselasticasweatshirtsrad

am i right?

closer

i was in a room filled with 22 cadavers. i touched a heart, held a lung, and lifted a rib cage and peered into the cavity of a man. it was really fun, but the ride back was really weird.

noodles is in town. he bought me a drink.

fwap

school is going pretty good. a lot of work is going on. i got an internship with illustrator Jonathon Rosen. i start this friday. elliot and maybe shelia are coming home with me this weekend to go apple picking. we're going to make so many pies! i get paid this this week. ideas are flowing through me like electricity. things are pretty good. some loose ends here and there, but it's ok. it's going to cool.


yup.

tombs

"Take a picture of yourself right now
Don’t change your clothes, don’t fix your hair… Just take the picture
Post the picture with no editing
Post these instructions with your picture"


alex is coming over soon! Yay!

shreds

i drew this today in my digital painting class. i crack myself up.


and i can't stop playing this. my top score is 65550, level 12.

buddhists monks came to campus today to do some dances to ward off our inner demons and bless the ground. it was pretty rad.

step softly

god damn it, flash is hard!!!

yellow spoon

i got drunk last night and crawled underneath the gate to get home. i fell asleep in my clothes in elliot's room, i barely remember coming into his room. i'm going to stop drinking so much.

i need a hammer and nails.


beaver skull.

glass

i find this to be amazing.

i'm determined to teach myself how to color digitally. so far, so good.

again and again

i colored my hair again. i really like it. :)

le sigh

like the one that got away

"where are you scooby doo?" is on tv right now. it's pretty awesome. i used to watch it every weekend with my mom and mary.

i had my web design class this morning. i learned some basic flash and did some short animations. it was pretty easy, but basic stuff.

yesterday, i went to coney island/ astroland with molly and jackson. we ate soft shell crab sandwiches, calms, candied apples, and drank beer. we rode on the cyclone for the last time of the season, and relaxed on the wonder wheel. we finished our day with a freak show. lots of fun!

science illustration next!

baby bay

school has started up again so this thing will probably have more entries because it will be part of my procrastination process. so far, my classes look to be a lot of fun but tons of work. that should be expected because it is senior year for me. shit!

evan has made me second in command for static fish. he is going to be able to kick my ass this year but it's going to be for the best. responsibility, say it with me.

i've been getting really obsessed with the different flavors and possibilities of oysters. i looked up how flavors come about in the oysters due to the water's temperature. i'm pretty much going to take myself out on a date to the oyster bar in grand central. people can come along, but they're on their own when we get there.

toodark just brought me mac -n- cheese from 5 spot.

doo dung a lung

i will say that i am slightly drunk about now. i'm sitting on my couch at home. i have to go to bed soon, because i'll be waking up early to go to the beach with my mom and sister. girls day out i would say. there will be a lot of bickering in our future, but it's not like i'm not prepared. hopefully mary and i will lay drunk under the sun, and my mom putting up with our shit and vice versa.


on another note, i start school in less than a week. i am both excited to start again, see friends again, have my own room, and have my own bathroom. i really want to apply myself this year and do some self discovery with my work. sometimes i feel like i'm fucking up entirely, like i will be a failure and never do anything with my life. i am better off then some people, but not by much.

fuck it, but let's do dis shet.

For the next 10 days

i am so pumped i could vomit all over New York.

leap frog

it's been rainy, humid, damp weather for the past three days. i actually like it because i don't have to use my air conditioner to keep cool. plus i really hate sweating.

my bike went a little weird yesterday. the rear wheel went off axis and was stuck on the break pad all while i was waiting for a light to turn green. i couldn't go with traffic and almost got hit by a car. i had to walk/carry my bike all the way to work. i was a hot, sweaty mess.

there's other stuff, but it's boring and you don't care.

onlyif

i had a good weekend. i was really drunk on a large supply of beer running around coney island like a moron. i probably annoyed a lot of people, but i don't care because i was having lots of fun. i think i drank around two gallons of alcohol throughout the day. i got to eat a dozen of clams, so good. i peed in the ocean twice. and met a rabbit mermaid. weird fucking day man.

yesterday i moved out most of my stuff from my apartment. afterwards my mom, sister and i got lunch together. the restaurant wasn't well ventilated and was real hot inside. afterwards we went to a thrift store and i bought a dress and went to a flea market where my sister got herself a dress too. overall, good day.

elliot is california, i miss him terribly but i can have a good time with out him.




and i'm soooooooooo fucking pumped about this!!!

after his friends

last night was a nice evening of friends drinking pitchers of beer and telling true stories that we made up on the spot. lots of fun. we went over to a party after beer consumption, there was pork lasagna and a tuna salad, delicious. i then rode my bike home a little drunk at 1 in the morning.

tomorrow elliot is leaving for california and i won't see him for about 2+ weeks. bleh, it's going to be boring without the boy, but other things will be going on.

and it's gone

i went to MoMA today where i met up with anne and preeti. i didn't know preeti was going to be there but it was a bittersweet moment of seeing her. i can't help but feel like i'm betraying alex in some way by seeing them and acting as though there isn't any conflict. i wish we were all still friends that did stupid shit still.

i really like bloody marys. i'm on my second.

g'night.

piddles

1. What is your name? Kait
2. How old are you? 21
3. Where do you live, what do you live in, and do you like it? i live in Brooklyn, New York with my boyfriend and two other ladies in a 3 bedroom apartment. Living there is alright, the place is very messy not due to myself but i do what i can with the situation. i'll only be there till the end of july and then it's back to my hometown for a month and then school starts again!
4. What do you do for a job? i work in the career services office on the campus of my school. it's slow and boring.
5. What would you do with your time in an ideal world where earning money wasn't the top priority? travel a lot, create things i've always wanted to do.
6. Do you make anything? i make comics, i draw a alot, a lot a lot. i also knit, sew, and cook.
7. What is your favorite food? salmon don :)
8. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you choose? new york is fine for now
9. Ask me a question. No thanks.
10. Show me a picture of yourself.

11. Show me a picture of something that you think is awesome. I really dig this old dude. He is the background on my computer at work. Punk rock.

grab an indulgence

today is a rainy day. i usually don't mind the rain but riding a bike in the rain kind of sucks cock.

shelia is back in brooklyn! yay, after work, we're going to target to get a few things for her apartment. i'm probably going to get some q-tips, tights, and liquid eye liner.

the fact that i have to move out soon is looming over my head. elliot plans on moving out at the end of the week and flying back to california. but i doubt that's really going to happen. we shall see.

cha cha changes

changed my hair color.... again. it looks brown from far away, but it looks like a very dirty blond up close. i'm still getting used to the change, but i think it looks nice with my mug.

i think i just left a really awkward message on jeff's house phone.

lately i've been drawing a lot more. i did go to the museum of natural history and drew elephants for two hours so it's reassuring that i'm not losing my touch. i feel something big is going to happen but i don't want to get my hopes up.

Yay things!

i hate the radio

i'm going to be getting my hair colored, once again, and i'm liking this lady's hair color most.
i make the most boring entries of anyone, ever.

Oh lucky you

i haven't updated this thing in awhile so i'll do a quicky update shit blah blah cock.

elliot's mom came into town last week. i met up with his mom, his brother and elliot at MoMA. i just wandered around with them looking at my usual favorites of OOF, but hippopotamus poison was in storage.


so i was a little sad that it wasn't out and the air in the museum was making me sleepy. then while elliot's mom and i were looking at picasso's pieces... i saw John Krasinski! i looked again to make sure i wasn't seeing things, and it really was him! like a typical fan girl i turned around and ran squealing away. i am so cool.

last weekend was july 4th weekend so elliot, the family and i made our way down to maryland to spend it with the rest of the likes of us. it involved drinking beers, eating crabs, eating clams, swimming, looking at weird shit, drinking beer, swimming, eating pie, eating crabs, rowing in the bay, wine tasting, eating clams, beerpong(lame), meeting the newest edition to the family Max, swimming, passing out, looking at fireworks, exploring, drinking, eating, and laughing.

i got real drunk the night before we had to go home. i painted my toenails drunk thinking it was a great idea at the time. i passed out in the bed i was sharing with my mom, she thought i died and checked my pulse, but i'm just a real heavy sleeper when i get stupid drunk. the next morning i was still drunk and the only words i uttered were, "i'm still drunk."



tuesday night, elliot, toodark, and i went to see Wet Hot American Summer at McCarren Park Pool. i haven't seen the movie in a long time, so it was really fucking funny.


nothing much else but i really want this dress.


done.

I am a pool party

pic on my phone of elliot and penmny totally keeping it chill.

yesterday was my last day at ad hoc as an intern. i was getting tired of being there but i'll be back to come see the dudes. They're cool dudes.

i'm excited about lunch like i am always am, every day of the year.

If there is a heaven...

if i make it into the kingdom of god and what not, all i want to be doing for the rest of all eternity is to eat salmon don. ALL I WANT!!!!

my right shoulder is super tight.

blurry

i constantly feel like i'm running out of time to get better. i don't know what to do. i have a whole shit load of opportunities waiting around and i'm too scared/lazy/don't have time to do anything about them. i'm worried. i didn't get much sleep this past weekend.

elliot's sick. i've been taking care of him.


and other boring stufff. asasdf. cunts

'appy fadder's day

that's my dad. i love him.

Today is great.

because i get fucking paid todaaay!

rock lobster

my internship was actually productive today. i got to make graffiti and do some free hand drawing that will later be posted in an installation. then i later became very dizzy and lightheaded but otherwise i am satisfied with myself.

enjoying

i burned myself on the exhaust pipe on elliot's moped. my dad was disappointed, not because i was riding on a motorbike but i should have known better to wear boots with socks and long pants.

a high of 86 degrees tomorrow. that's ok.

little people

i feel like i have a lot of stuff to do but i keep forgetting what all of is.

it's time to make a list!



-laundry
buy oxi-clean
be get makeup
-scan/copy/print portfolio and resume


lunch was nice, my lime ice pop was mush before i even started to eat it.

straw head

today is my sister's birthday. she is 19 today and she is huge. huge in the sense that she's a year older. i got her a dress for her birthday but i'm also getting her a Diana camera.

it has a pinhole setting on it, 3 aperture settings, 2 shutter settings, and it comes with a book! it takes those really nostalgic vintage type of pictures. so she'll like it since she's a photographer. happy birthday shithead.

send me back

i think i would like to try out burlesque. i'll go to an ammature night show, do a little number and be done with it. just goes back to how i want to be a classy looking pinup/vixen. i'm just too lazy to do it on a daily basis.


and i'm hungry.

worst muse

i'm at work with no bosses or supervisors, just my fellow work study and i. this is going to get real fucking boring in about now. but i get to dick around all day.

yesterday i "worked out" which was really weird. i did sit ups, leg lifts, irish step dancing, attempted pull ups, and did that weird thingy. it sucked but maybe it was worth it. i want to look nice in a bathing suit.

i need something else to do.

throwbacks

high school times kinda feel like they were yesterday, but obviously not. my youngest cousin is graduating high school this weekend. i will be attending the festivities reluctantly but i will be poisoning my liver to pass the time.

this past weekend was slow but nice. the weather has been wonderful.

cleaned my room and stepped right on a tack

i cleaned up my room tonight after elliot and i did our laundry. i can finally see the floor now. we've been here for 3 weeks and it feels like a bedroom at last. i took pictures cause i'm a herb.




Desk area


Door, coat rack, dildos everywhere


closet corner

tin ceiling! and elliot's art work


BED

maybemetoo

i know some dudes say that wolverine changed their lives forever. we'll see.